Father, forgive me for all those occasions where I have behaved on the basis of my own sense of self-righteousness, thinking I am superior, being noble, etc. 

I realize now it is a false sense of humility; it is mere vanity, and Your view of vanity is not complementary. Indeed vanity according to Your Word, is as “a fleeting vapor and a snare of death” (Prov.21:6), and “all the works that are done under the sun; and indeed, all is vanity and grasping for the wind” (Eccl.1:14); “every man at his best state is but vapor” (Ps.39:5), & I would like to leave that vapour behind.

Forgive me for so many meaningless words, thoughts, and behaviours which don’t count for much in Your eyes; they are, in fact, as nothing. Forgive me for thinking that trivial acts are more important than true acts of worship. I want the heart of Mary/Miriam, that one  “who anointed the Lord with fragrant oil and wiped His feet with her hair” (John 11:2). Give me that true heart of surrender that just wants more than anything else to be like “Miriam, who was seated at the Master’s feet, listening to His teaching” (Lk.10:39,40). Forgive me that too often I am more like Martha, “distracted with much serving,” worrying about needless trivia, for You told her “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and bothered about many things; but only one thing is necessary. For Miriam has chosen the good part . . .” (Lk.10:39-42). Cleanse my heart of all self-righteous, superficial nobleness, vanity, and false humility. Change my heart now, that nothing will trump my intimacy with You, that I will choose to make everything I do an act of worship, through my focus on You, by always keeping You at the centre of everything I do.

I receive Your conviction, now, understanding that my own choice to sacrifice in unnecessary ways even though I thought I was well-intended, those things count for nothing. In fact, they will be burned by fire  (1 Cor.3:10-13). I loose from my carnal mind-set right now, all such thoughts, attitudes, and desires driven by vanity, self-righteousness, falsely nobility, and false humility, and I choose to cut them loose from my self. I circumcise them from my heart and mind, and NAIL  each one to the Cross of Christ Yeshua. May I no longer be as the Pharisees, to whom Jesus/Yeshua said: “You Pharisees clean the outside of the cup and plate, but inside you are full of greed and wickedness. Fools! Didn’t He who created the outside also create the inside?” (Lk.11:39,40). I ask You to cleanse my heart and mind that I will be clean from the inside out, no longer concerned with the approval of others.

When I come before You, Lord God, to give an account for all my words and deeds, I want to hear “Well done, good and faithful servant,” not suffer loss, for “If anyone’s work is burned up, he will suffer loss—he himself will be saved, but as through fire” (1 Cor.3:10-13).

Purify my heart now, Father God, that my actions will be done from the heart, and my good works will count, not be burned up in the flame of Your devouring fire. I renounce all those delectable things that are meaningless to You, and put them in the fire now, so that You won’t have to burn up my superficial “good deeds;” in Jesus/Yeshua’s Holy Name. Amen.

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